it seems humanity is making more of a downfall, i have mentioned this once or twice before, but this time i can prove it, one of my friends, who happens to be a girl but still hangs with me and my other friends, asked the group on how she should dump her boyfriend, it sounds cruel but we didnt think much of it at the moment, instead we made some jokes, no one did mind, but we still took it some seriousness, so we came up with some good ideas, first off "its not working out..." a classic, everyone knows that when this is said to you by a loved one, it means trouble, then we thought of, "i think we should see other people" another classic, but more direct, then finally one of my friends came up with "why not tell him you found someone else?" we took it to lightly but it wasnt supposed to be a joke, so when we stopped laughing she asked "who?" my friend looked at the group pointing to people, then got to me, "Why not Mat?" i stood staring, not saying she isnt good looking or anything, but i allready had a girlfriend and her boyfriend could beat me to a bloody pulp, now, its acts like this that make me think humanity is hitting a downfall, just seeing her toy with his emotions the brush him off like it never happened, its rather great when you notice the percistance a lonely man puts into holding onto the one women he wants, he would literally get on the floor, she hasnt dumped him, as of yet, she said she would think it over, i dont even know if she would aprove of my putting her in this, but i guess aslong as i dont mention her name its all good, anyway, we have grown to think emotions and feelings are nothing but things people fake to make others feel sorry for them, but they are rock hard, no one can get rid of these emotions no matter how hard they try to hold them in, taking my Grandmothers funeral for instants, i was able to hold in my tears through the whole thing, but once that coffin lowered into the flames of the abyss, i couldnt do it, i fell to the ground and burst into tears, from that day onward i did my hardest to make sure everyone understood that pain, the pain of loosing a loved one, its a scar that cant be mended, not much people know of this pain, they are the lucky ones, i guess this is the reason i am usually so mean to people, mean to humanity, but its mean to me aswell, and as i love to say, Eye for an Eye, Tooth for a Tooth, whatever it gives to me must be given back to it just the same or more, but i guess i have more reasons, mostly just the fact that each and every human is a festering meat hole who feels nothing but the basis of instinct impulses, thanks for reading, hmm, im thinking of leaving another note...
If thine eye is full of evil, thou whole body will be filled with darkness - Matthew 6:23
-: Matia Joseph Damian Romanova
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