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i almost cried today.
yes this day.
i wait all year,but once it's here i can't leave them.
even though have been depressed and sad because of this school year .
but that's what makes me .... me.

i cried, i worried , my heart died i realized my faults.
My best friend was taken into drugs.
i felt like life was going to kill me.
i had those times of crying and laughing.
ifelt like no one really cared if i was alive.
or i felt no one could i was trying.

although i wouldn't be like this.
happy and energytic and not caring what others think.
i couldn't run down the hallways singing really loud no matter if it sucked.
icould say yeah so what.
i could call myself stupid.

i now see that imperfection just makes us better.
it's shows us we can't do everything, but we can try.
i made new friends by the end of the year.
tears and lies.
they all go down in the dust now.
if i had a choice i would talk to all those people who put me down this year.
just to tell them thanx.

for making me the way i wanted to be.
happy and hugging people.
and to be loved by the people.
who i thought didn't care.

help me realize the people who didn't care.
cared the whole time.
i just was so caught up in not beliving .
i forgot to actually to see what was actually there.

My friends are leaving me going to high school.
i'm sad and scared i'll never see them again.
or maybe i felt like they should be with me forever.

loving them the whole way.
i figured out how to live.
like i wanted to say i try for something more.
without my teachers and friends pushing me to it.
love is just there when you need it.
it's are choice to see if it's there.