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I hate those stupid cigarettes my father smokes up
I hate the way my mother wants me to be what I'm not
I hate the way he ignores me
I hate how he doesn't talk to me
I hate that I can't help my friends as much as I'd like to
I hate how things have changed for the worst for them
I hate how things have changed to the worst for me
I hate how I never get a moments rest
I hate how I can't make up my mind
I hate how nothing goes the way I want it to
I hate how nothing I do is good enough for anyone
I hate meaning little to anyone
I hate how nothing is ever right
I hate how I can't change things the way I want to
I hate how my problems never go away
I hate how only the good things fade
I hate every mistake I've made
I hate how every good thing I've done is forgotten
I hate how what I mean is never heard
I hate how I give off the wrong impression
I hate how I can't talk about anything
I hate how this is all I can do to let people get a peek at what's really going on
I hate that I don't love or value myself as much as I probably should
I hate my stupid clothes
I hate the stupid looks I get from people
I hate how I only make an a** of myself around people
I hate how I only do something worth remembering when no one's around to remember it
I hate how I destroyed my own happiness
I hate his stupid smile
I hate how I really do love everything about him
I hate how I find myself in a mess all the time
I hate how I don't ever fight back
I hate how weak I have become
I hate how weak I've always been
I hate that I rarely get anything I want
I hate how I'm kind of glad it's that way
I hate the way I hate myself
But most of all
I hate my hatred