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We'll he isn't in to me, as a matter of fact he doesn't remeber a single thing of what he've done after the gig xd
So I asked him why he was hugging me that night. "Oh, when i'm a bit drunk I get cuddly", he said. Oh well that solves that issue sweatdrop
So I asked him: what if we would have kissed, you wouldn't know?"
-"Oh that I would remember"
Yeah right, good thing notting happend whee
But now, something changed. He talks barely to me on MSN. We don't meet each other anymore. Very odd, I miss him. He's my buddy.

Another thing worried me this week, my exboyfriend was standing at my school. That was so weird. He was't there for me, some of his friends are in my school. But he blocked me on MSN so he doesn't speak to me but he dares to come to my school xd I felt so upset that moment. Also because I still love him. But I couldn't lose control or freak out xd I kept doing normal, like smiling. At first I didn't believe what I was seeing. But he started to laugh at me, or more precising with me. Like "Check out her reaction, HAH". It didn't effect him at all seeing me again, after what happend, 5months ago whee So I tried to bike off as fast as I could. XD My female friend was with me at that moment, but she didn't understand how I felt.
I feel so alone, now without my best friend I feel so alone. And besides He wouldn't understand me either.