• Do you feel the pain you cause?
    The hurt I bring upon myself by loving you.
    It builds and spreads like a disease,blending scars, until the hue is
    unbearable
    indescribable
    blinding.
    I have brought this upon myself by asking too much of you
    by asking you to do things you cannot.
    So I searched for new pain...
    I found and relished in the heartache.
    For it made me ALIVE and it dulled the numbness of love
    the love that made the animal I was
    tame
    soulless
    vanish.
    I ask that one day I will be forgiven when
    understood
    empathized
    and "whole".
    Until that day I shall await for
    the end of my emotion
    the start of being the one you deserve
    or until my heart becomes stone.
    Whichever first you must know
    how I feel for you
    how I live for you
    how I'd die for you.