• I’m talking about all that pain I had endured
    Day after day without your presence
    No other way to escape,
    My dreams them selves I can not feint,
    It’s just not the same

    I wish there was something I could remember,
    Like all those times you tucked me in,
    Laughed at all my stupid jokes,
    Asked how my day had gone, and it’s just not the same,

    The truth would hit me like a train,
    Always would be clear as day,
    I shut it down,
    Saying to my self how you would be back,
    I’d pray to god sometimes at night,
    But then I’d look around and say,
    Damn…god’s left me long ago
    Bet he crawls in bed at night,
    Never thinking about the mess he made,
    Always knowing I was screwed,
    Always knowing I’d cry for him,

    But…I’m so alone, and its not the same,
    I’ve never felt this alone,
    Never knew what a loss would be,
    Never knew, I never knew…
    That I would miss you,
    That I would mourn for you,
    And cry for you,
    Loose all this sleep for you,
    I cant think straight,
    I can’t walk straight,
    It feels like I am on autopilot,
    Going through the motions of life,
    Never feeling,
    But always moving,

    The day you died, dear brother of mine,
    It felt like the floor had just crumbled underneath me,
    And I’ve been running ever since,
    I cant find my way back,
    I can’t even see your face anymore,
    It’s like I knew you where there,
    Once alive, and breathing,
    With a beating heart,
    Your just not there, it’s just not the same