• if laughter is the best medicine
    its no wonder i'm so sick
    never getting better
    watching time pass by
    like a dream too far away to catch
    and hold on to
    slipping through my fingers
    wondering why its so hard
    to just click with someone
    and make someone smile
    make them laugh
    and make them laugh for real
    not in the way
    those pretty girls do
    i think i could be pretty too
    but whats the point
    i don't need their acceptance
    nor do i want it neccessarily
    it would be like
    the ultimate balancing act
    on a double-sided
    sword point
    whatever you say will
    have the chance of making you fall
    and no matter which way you fall
    you're going to be cut
    and have a scar forever
    black through your soul
    so that you'll never forget
    i just want to be left alone
    until someone finds me
    who can sit in silence
    and appreciate it
    someone who i know i can tell
    all of my secrets
    in my little world
    and never feel embarrassed by
    telling them how i feel.
    who knows that i can
    wear colour
    and make jokes
    and watch TV like every other person
    but until then,
    i'll just

    be

    alone.