• Breakdown

    has you expected i broke down from the inside out

    i fell to my knees in surrender

    and let everything that i held back consume me

    you would have been surprised to see the demon i had become

    you would have screamed in fear of the

    burning hate

    the rage

    the hurt

    and the intensity of it all

    you see this is what happens when you prod to hard at something unwilling

    it explodes

    just like me

    i thought that i was fine

    that i could resist what you were doing

    but i was wrong

    oh yes i was very wrong

    you tore down my brick wall piece by piece

    placing each stone carefully on the ground

    so that i wouldn't be aware that you were having this affect on me

    guess i thought that i was strong

    that i could handle you and everything else

    and well i guess now i was wrong

    i cried internally and burned externally

    sleep came to slow and soon the thoughts all came back

    see what you have done

    i can play the blame game

    and point the finger at you

    but i know that it wasn't your fault

    it was all mine

    and now i suffer

    for i have lived in denial

    and let myself become angry with the world.

    become angry with the innocent

    i have become a demon

    a burning battle that everyone doesnt know

    ofcourse they don't know

    why would they

    i smile everyday and keep them fooled

    but you saw through that realness i was faking

    and cut me open to bleed the evil i have wreaked

    you gathered my blood into a jar and put it aside

    leaving this empty skin on the floor to rot

    you know where i am going

    my soul haunts the room where we had

    everything and then lost it all at the course of moment

    the moment of a breakdown

    with one smile i thought i was stable and then you came

    and then one tear i was gone