• Latley, I've been keeping myself busy...pff not. The only thing I can do is try to stay awake. I would sleep 24 hours straight if it was possible, because It helps me forget. My eyes burn, I'm always cold, and the only thing I feel is anger. Your voice still echoes in my head, the sound waves bounce around in my skull. You know what the worst part is? When I go out (whenever I can muster up the strength to go out in public) and I see people laughing, and smiling, I get sick to my stomach. If it wasn't bad enough, I can't even stand to see other people enjoying life. Before I was affiliated with you, I had a wonderful system of shutting my door in people's faces, and sending them on their way. But you kicked the door down. I shouldn't blame you...and I should not be angry at you...You're young, and changing, and you have no idea what you want. Don't feel bad though, I'm as angry at myself as I am at you...I shouldn't have even gotten to know you, because as much as I can't stand thinking about you, I still can't get your face out of my head. Every minute of every day I'm filled to the brim with regret.... I don't think I can take much more...I need to forget...I'm tired now...Goodnight.