• Burn,
    burn in power and stupidity,
    for as i have given so much you cant give me more than one chance,
    I did so much,
    I worked so hard,
    and you cast it away with nothing to notice,
    You made me happy,
    but then you made me think i was worthless,
    you stood and smiled,
    while you said i hurt you,
    I hated myself for so long thinking it would be ok,
    I don't want it to be,
    I KNOW I caused you pain,
    at least i had the compassion to apologize,
    because on every waking i wondered,
    did you die and I didn't get to hold you,
    and i wasn't ready so you didn't want me?
    How many times?
    Infinite,
    even know i will wonder but this time i know the answer,
    it is and always has been,
    i will never be what you wanted,
    so I wont try,
    i hate you,
    yet i love you more,
    and it burns me inside,
    i had just figured it all out,
    finally grown up a bit today,
    so i took a break,
    and did a small bend,
    and you said you couldn't take it,
    once again,
    you have said it so many times yet i keep waiting for you to come back,
    this time i wont wait,
    you go to your old friend,
    my sad enemy,
    and use him to hide,
    and torture me,
    i hate that i cnat veer learn fast enough for you,
    and that when you say to take it slow,
    you don't get that i will have to grow slowly too,
    so thats why i took it faster,
    so i could hopefull grow sooner,
    but now,
    i may be stuck,
    or may be better,
    either way,
    We must never be together,
    I can't take this bullshit,
    can't take this more,
    i have so many others,
    and i finally gave you the time you wanted,
    so you shove it back,
    and with a poison on it,
    Damn you chaos,
    for making me find you again,
    I hope your shell doesn't change,
    and this time,
    I mean it.
    Go away,
    and let me burn,
    at least like this...i know i can have some joy,
    and not worry about who was my entire life,
    good bye,
    die painfully.....