• I tried to hold onto every last sense of consciousness I had. All my senses were slipping through my fingers as I tried to pull them back to me. The blackness was creeping in and the pain was growing.
    "Don't leave me," I said in a voice so quiet that it sounded like a whisper when I was meant to shout it for everyone to hear.
    Blackness took over my mind and I couldn't think. The pain was unbearable. I drifted into a sleep which lasted for a period of time that felt like forever.

    The most horrible feeling was knowing that the first noise I heard was the bleeping of the life support machine as I awoke in a strange room with strange faces surrounding me.
    "Sara? Oh thank God!" said a very relieved voice.
    "Mum is that you?" I asked in a confused tone that even the person I was directing the question to seemed confused.
    "Yes honey it's me" my mum said again.
    "What happened and where am I" I asked.
    " You're in hospital," said a different but still famailar voice I later recognised as my Dad's,"You were trapped in a 15-storey building that was on fire, you are very lucky to be alive!"
    "I think we should all leave Sara alone for a while to collect her thoughts" said a deep but soft voice.

    I heard the sound of the door clicking as everyone left me to be on my own for a while. The only thought I had that ran through my mind was 'Where is he' and nobody could answer that question apart from himself. I tried to think of possible places but in the end none of them was much help as he could be anywhere by now I guessed. I ended up guessing the time as there was no clock in the room. I could sort of tell what time it was by looking through the window into the blackness of the night. It was the same blackness I had seen before I woke up here. I felt the pain in my head and ribs grow considerably. I guess I finally fell asleep because when I woke the sky outside was a bright blue and cloudless.
    A nurse came in to give me my medicine.
    "I don't want any medication, I'm fine," I lied even though I had never been very good at it.
    The nurse just gave up and walked out without a fight. I was very surprised.
    A few minutes later though she came back in with the Doctor with the deep but soft voice that I later found out was called Dr Felling.
    "Listen Sara I know you don't want the medication but it will take away all the pain you are suffering from," he said in a soft but harsh voice.
    I really did want to accept the offer of all my pain to go away even the love I felt for him was pain but I couldn't just let my memories of him go away like that, it would just be being untrue to myself.
    I had to find him and tell him I was sorry after all I was the one that got us into all this mess and if I didn't apologise to him now I couldn't live with myself. There was another reason that I wanted to find him. To tell him I love him. He didn't know any of these details just yet and he should just in case I died in the next five minutes.